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well i found out my amazing girlfriend is moving to alaska. . . . . . sad day :( i dont want her to leave....... i will miss her so. just not seeing her over summer makes me miss her so so much. and knowing she is leaveing for another state makes me sad :( i love her so so much!! i hope i can at least hang out with her before she moves. just one more day! i just cant imagine life without her :( she is my everything. i dont want to loose her. i know we will still talk to eachother but i wont be able to see her. :( i really dont want to loose the love of my life........ every time i find someone that i love with all my heart and some more they leave me. they either just say whatever its over or this happens :( why does this happen? why cant i be in a relationship and have it last?? they never work. should i just give up on them? should i stay away from them? i dont know what to do. im going to go crazy not having her here. it sucks knowing that im going to loose her. i wont loose her friendship but i am loosing my girlfriend :( and that kills me!

movies with the family

well tonight my mom came home with two movies the one was "The Lovely Bones" and "Phyco Ward" the lovely bones was a good one it was sad tho. it was about this old guy that went around and kills all these little girls and hides all their bodys. and he finaly dumped this one girls body into this one put that was like endless and he ended up falling off the cliff and his arm was wrapped around his head. it was a good ending. he deserved to die!!!! lol but the phyco ward was freakin' stupid!!! it was about this people that went to this old building and got locked inside and ended up getting killed off by this one guy that everytime he killed a person he went and prayed to god to forgive him of his sin. so when he finaly killed the last few people all you saw was his face and the door shutting.
so yeah thats how my night went. oh and now im talking to Kacee :D i love that girl!!:D

baseball

yeah. well today i went to play baseball with a bunch of people. i went over and my team was up to bat and they siad i was next so i was like carp. so i got up and i hear a kid yell how far can you hit?!? i said i guess we will find out. so we found out i can hit pretty far. i got struck out a few times and i got two home runs in a row! i was proud of myself. and when we were out in the out feild this kid hit the ball way out there and i knew alan would not be able to catch it so i started running as fast as i could and i got to the line of the ball and jumped and caught it. i was suprized. yeah it made me feel pretty good. now my back hurts. oh well. but im going back tommorrow morning.

yesterday.

well yesterday i went swimming with Kacee Jordan and Rachelle. i think that is how you spell her name lol. if not sorry. well i was sitting at home bored out of my mind when my phone rang. Jordan called me to invite me to go swimming with them. i said hold on let me ask my mom. so my mom said yes and i had to unload the truck and find some shorts and a towel. i got those and we headed out. when i got there Jordan waved and i so i started walking over there. when i got over to them Kacee stood uup and gave me the biggest hug :) i was so happy to see her :) she looked so freakin' cute all day :) her naturl curl is so cute :) well yeah i got right in when i got there and it was kinda cold but i got used to it. when i got in i did not take my shirt off so i got even more cold. but i finaly took it off and we decided to walk to another spot where the sun was. we got there and i got right in lol. this side was deeper and i cant swim. Kacee kept asking me if i wanted to go on the floaty and i said no cuz i did not want to end up falling in and not be able so see her face again. (cuz i would drown) lol but then we decided to leave and Jordans dad gave us a ride to the park. me and Kacee played at the park for a while and i had a blast :) so then Joradan and Rachelle were comeing back and i did not have a shirt on so i went and put it on. yeah i was not conforitable or however you spell that lol. but then we went to the little burger joint and got frys. well they did. i did not want to eat them cuz they were theirs not mine. well i had a few. then after that we went and chilled and Jordans house till my mom got there to pick me up. so while we were waiting Kacee asked if she could paint my fingernails. i said yes cuz i did not want her to feel bad if i said no. so my fingernails are blue and orange with our name on each hand :) her names on the left hand and mine is on the right. so my mom finaly showed up and i really did not want to leave cuz i was haveing so much fun hanging out with Kacee and jordan. true story. when i got home alan and Kyle wanted to go for a walk so i did and i wanted to slap a goat but did not want to get rammed. so i didnt do it. i got home and talked to Kacee for a while and then i fell asleep lol.

first day of summer school.

well today was the first day of summer school for me. ok well i got to the school and i could not find the room i needed to be at so i walked around the school looking lost and finaly found the room. i went in and the teacher told me to sit anywhere so i did. she came over and got me logged in. i had to start on this english thingy. lol but the first text thing i passed and the second one failed by like 2 points. how lame am i? so i was sitting there and a kid named luke looks at me and says "hey Randy, i want your body" i was freaked out lol. i always knew he was gay but he just told everyong right there. so i waas freaking out. so after all that he wanted to use my phone so i said sure not trying to be rude. so then i get a phone call and he answered it!! i was like whoa man!! so then i called my brother and told him to meet me at walkers so i walked down there. and i was half way home when my mom texts me and says to meet her out front of the school. i told her that trevor came and got me and she yelled at me over text. yeah she was pissed so i went home and cleaned up the living room so she was not so mad when she walked through the doors. she was still really mad. so then we cleaned for the rest of the day. i got my room cleaned and swept. yeah i have no carpet at all in my house. i even made my bed. lol my room looks so great now :) im proud of myself. well now we need to get all the laundry done by ten in the morning tommorrow cuz someone is comeing over to look at the house. yay i get to move again. im sick of moving. we have only lived here sense january. i think thats how you spell that lol. but yeah. moving is lame. but it means being closer to people lol. levan is extreamly boring and there is nothing to do out here. well yeah and then i asked my brother to drive me to the store and he said no so i had to walk over there in the dark. yeah i hate the dark. oh well i guess. i got my drink. and now im home sitting on my butt wondering what i did. so anywho im going to leave cuz i have nothing left to say.