yeah . . . .

its been a while since i have been on here. so here goes nothing.

Okay so the most amazing person in my life now lives in alaska :( it makes me sad that she had to leave. i have been depressed since i knew she was gone. when she was at the airport still in utah i got depressed :( yeah. i miss that girl so much!! its going to be a while till i can see her again and hold her close. ugh!!! this is so hard!! my mom was telling me when she was my age her boyfriend moved up to alaska so she understands... so life is really hard not having Kacee here. she always has homework so i blame her school for me not being able to talk to her. i still cant belive she is gane. i can kinda but not really. its stressful. the only reason i am getting grades in school is so i can go up and see her in alaska. if i couldnt i would say. screw it all. but im getting grades for her. i need to be able to hlod he in my arms again. i miss her so much!! im going to try to go up in november or december. i am going to freeze my ass off but it will be so worth it :) being able to watch the northern lights with the girl i love :) it will be so much fun! we will do great things one day me and her will :) at least if she want to haha. i want to be with her for the rest of my life. i would be the happiest guy you would ever meet :) i would be the happiest man in the world!!! lol. but really she is the most amazzing person i know. she makes me so happy even if she is 3,000 miles away. i will love her forever. she will hold my heart forever. i am hers :) forever and ever! well ta ta for now.